Adding metadata

     To verify my blog with Google, I had to add a metatag and I did.

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Decisions on helping friends

     If there is ever a time you should help a friend, never hesitate to make the choice (one way or the other). Either help them or not, right then and there.

     If you make the decision and change it, (and you have a consience) you will regret changing your mind for the rest of your life.

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Trust no one

     Why is it that when you start to trust people, they always turn on you? OK, this sound rhetorical and way too common place, but it keeps happening to me over and over again throughout my life.

     I think I am going to stop being friends with anyone and only talk to people I have to. This all seems pathetic but I know that if I want my kids to be happier, they need to start doing the same thing. From them, all I hear is the same thing I am dealing with. Friends who turn for no good reason and they try their best to make the kids as miserable and their friends are.

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Deep thinking or shallow thoughts?

     [Thinking out loud] So, What is important in ones life? Is it all the "stuff" that bombards us on a daily basis? (Like Facebook or email) Or is it the ethereal things that you see all around you at the subconscious level which you never perceive until your deep in thought or some type of contemplative state of mind? (like at 2AM while everyone else is asleep)

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New year, same situation

     I am just starting a new year and will need to start a new plan for my life. I can't say more than that. It just is complicated.

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William graduates from 6th grade.

William graduated from elementary school today.

More later.
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Scared, hell yes!

     Today, I have to go work in the Trim at Queensgate, where I run locomotives with remote control boxes. Not that I like the job. It is in the Trim and I can't take much more of that. The constant freakout when ever a tank car rolls by or I have to even walk by one. It is disheartening to know that I have to work in a place where I am completely terrified of my surroundings.

     I have worked in some really scary places. A foundry where I poured steel with my bare hands. I have worked on nuclear reactors on submarines. Been inside a massive (and I mean really friggin' big) crane working on the cables as the crane is moving. Those are the ones I can talk about. There are more I can't which were even scarier. I was not even afraid of those things because I took precautions to make sure I was working safe. Sure, I could have died at any moment doing any of those jobs. The part that is pathetic is that I am now absolutly freaked out anytime get net a railroad tank car. It just makes me shake.

     I have dreams about leaking acid cars which are so bad I wake up in a sweat and can't go back to sleep till the next day (maybe). This is one of those scary-ass things taht no one talks about with anyone. I think that I would appear weak and fragile if that happened. But, it has literally screwed up my life. I can't talk about it any more now. I have to go to work.

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The Last Post

     This will be the last public post I will make on this blog. No one else in my family wants to do anything with it and since all I ever hear about posts is complaints, I am deleting it.

     Maybe in a few years (after the kids grow up and move out) I will restart it (just for me). Otherwise, it is a rather large waste of my time (which could be devoted to other more important things).

     This will all disappear in around 24 hours from the initial posting.

Please, have a better day tomorrow.

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Serenity

     OK, while I was sorting through the paperwork, I had this on in the background. I might as well share it.

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The good china

Dinner with the good china! This brings back lots of memories.

Todd
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