Well, I guess I should start this all again?

I have been warned that if I don't post something here, they will erase the whole thing. Guess I better take the time once a week to make up some stuff?

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New Year, New Ideas.

Sometimes pain is better than fog.

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Whow, new tags and all.

     Google is forcing me to make changes to my template to continue using it. I added a meta-tag and now they should be happy.

ADDED 2011-09-16-0914 for google blogger verification - start

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ADDED 2011-09-16-0914 for google blogger verification - end

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When will this ever be over?

     I have to wait until the lawsuit against my employer is over before I am to do any more posts. It has taken over 3.5 YEARS so far. When will this ever be over?

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Adding metadata

     To verify my blog with Google, I had to add a metatag and I did.

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Decisions on helping friends

     If there is ever a time you should help a friend, never hesitate to make the choice (one way or the other). Either help them or not, right then and there.

     If you make the decision and change it, (and you have a consience) you will regret changing your mind for the rest of your life.

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Trust no one

     Why is it that when you start to trust people, they always turn on you? OK, this sound rhetorical and way too common place, but it keeps happening to me over and over again throughout my life.

     I think I am going to stop being friends with anyone and only talk to people I have to. This all seems pathetic but I know that if I want my kids to be happier, they need to start doing the same thing. From them, all I hear is the same thing I am dealing with. Friends who turn for no good reason and they try their best to make the kids as miserable and their friends are.

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Deep thinking or shallow thoughts?

     [Thinking out loud] So, What is important in ones life? Is it all the "stuff" that bombards us on a daily basis? (Like Facebook or email) Or is it the ethereal things that you see all around you at the subconscious level which you never perceive until your deep in thought or some type of contemplative state of mind? (like at 2AM while everyone else is asleep)

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New year, same situation

     I am just starting a new year and will need to start a new plan for my life. I can't say more than that. It just is complicated.

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William graduates from 6th grade.

William graduated from elementary school today.

More later.
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Scared, hell yes!

     Today, I have to go work in the Trim at Queensgate, where I run locomotives with remote control boxes. Not that I like the job. It is in the Trim and I can't take much more of that. The constant freakout when ever a tank car rolls by or I have to even walk by one. It is disheartening to know that I have to work in a place where I am completely terrified of my surroundings.

     I have worked in some really scary places. A foundry where I poured steel with my bare hands. I have worked on nuclear reactors on submarines. Been inside a massive (and I mean really friggin' big) crane working on the cables as the crane is moving. Those are the ones I can talk about. There are more I can't which were even scarier. I was not even afraid of those things because I took precautions to make sure I was working safe. Sure, I could have died at any moment doing any of those jobs. The part that is pathetic is that I am now absolutly freaked out anytime get net a railroad tank car. It just makes me shake.

     I have dreams about leaking acid cars which are so bad I wake up in a sweat and can't go back to sleep till the next day (maybe). This is one of those scary-ass things taht no one talks about with anyone. I think that I would appear weak and fragile if that happened. But, it has literally screwed up my life. I can't talk about it any more now. I have to go to work.

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The Last Post

     This will be the last public post I will make on this blog. No one else in my family wants to do anything with it and since all I ever hear about posts is complaints, I am deleting it.

     Maybe in a few years (after the kids grow up and move out) I will restart it (just for me). Otherwise, it is a rather large waste of my time (which could be devoted to other more important things).

     This will all disappear in around 24 hours from the initial posting.

Please, have a better day tomorrow.

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Serenity

     OK, while I was sorting through the paperwork, I had this on in the background. I might as well share it.

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The good china

Dinner with the good china! This brings back lots of memories.

Todd
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One of the only videos I have seen online which I have actually been impressed with.

     I can't say anything more about this except.... "Enjoy!" I normally think YouTube and all the silly items there and everywhere else on the web are just trifles you can either watch and waste your time, or watch it and then put it out of your mind as drivel. This one I actually liked (enough to post it here. Go figure.

Bathtub IV from Keith Loutit on Vimeo.

     If you want to look at the extreme amount of detail, you have to watch it in HD. Believe me, it is worth the time. But... You have to click on the Bathtub IV link and go there to see it in HD.

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extra cash for bills (only)

     I received my tax refund last week. Not enough to go ona vacation or remodel the house (or even a room), but it is enough to pay off some bills. Yeh, I know. Absolutly zero excitement with this one. At least I am not dead yet.

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Clunky is here!

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Cold again!

     Why does it have to get so darn cold around here again? It was almost 70 degrees two weeks ago and now it is getting down to the single digits again. My lungs can't take this much longer. Or, at least I can't keep working out it these kinds of temperatures. The pain of breathing is pretty severe.

     The people I have been working with think I am pulling their leg when I say it hurts to breath. The only problem is, it does hurt to breath when the temps get down below freezing. Especially on the right side where most of the damage happened at work.

     My wish is that there would be some type of way to meter the amount of pain associated with this. Everyone looks at me when I discuss this. Considering I never really talk about what I am going through, it kind of sounds like I am just complaining about nothing. If they only knew.

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Not a happy way to wake up!

Some people wake up with a beautiful woman staring into their eyes.

I get this.

I have to rotate this picture, but not today.

BlackBerry posts?

Check out this one. I can now post from my BlackBerry. How cool is this?!?
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